There was a lot to think about after the birth, so much happened so fast, and even when you think you’re ready for it, it’s never what you expect. For me in these last few months I’ve experienced similar feelings and I haven’t written about them because as Mary needed to ponder all her happenings for a time, so have I.

There are still some events that I cannot, and will not share here, they remain too young and raw and I need to keep them close to my heart. But there are others that I feel a desire to write about and share and continue to explore here.

I’ve recently discovered Wondercafe.ca, it’s very interesting discussion website created by the United Church of Canada- My church. *And yes my minister knows I’m a Witch* we’ve had a couple chats about it and will likely discuss it more in the future. It’s worth a visit and I’ll probably wander around there a lot more in the next while.

In a post a few months ago I expressed the question asking how it was that Pastor Dave and Surrogate could “talk to God” with out too much backlash and how I felt that if I were to do the same there would be A LOT of backlash. They response I had to that was very comforting- thanks everyone who said they’d like to hear it from me.

So here we go…

I talk to God, or rather God talks to me. Freaky isn’t it?

What I’ve discovered during my hiatus from writing is that even though I remain Wiccan, follow my Wiccan practices, and more often than not visualize the Divine Creator as a Goddess, I also see a male, God if you will. And though many Wiccan’s find the term hard to swallow—I do not. I can say God; I can say “I believe in God” without feeling uncomfortable or that I’m somehow letting down the Goddess or my feminism.

That’s the first thing that I want to say.

The second is: When I say God I’m also saying Goddess, Creator, The Divine, The Universal Power, The Universal Energy etc… but God is short and my auto correct Capitalizes it without me having too, so I may just keep writing it that way.

Yet I’m talking about something MORE than the Christian ‘image’ of God. My beliefs go further than that image and all of its ideology. I very strongly believe that Christian Dogma has limited the scope of God and has reduced it to some puppet form of a greater higher power. That being said most Christians that I know and have conversation with also go beyond this Dogma God of an old man sitting in the clouds on a throne. I feel comfortable in the assumption that they believe, as I do, in the high, unknowable power that does not have one look or face. I believe that they see the Creator as something beyond their ability to comprehend and put a face to it because that’s the only way that we as humans can cope with something so utterly huge and overwhelming. This is more, bigger than the image, I believe, ‘the church’ (as a generalization) wants people to see.

Christianity has reduced God to something easily swallowed by the common masses. They did it centuries ago to simplify conversion. Now I think there is a movement to drop all that and return to the higher power in a stronger and deeper way.

These thoughts that I am writing are still new to me and know very well formed. They are thought that I continue to explore as I re-explore my Christian roots.

When I look at God in this way my mixture of beliefs Pagan and Christian do not challenge each other. They work together seamlessly and without strife.

And what’s more, God told me that’s how it’s supposed to be...

yup I'm leaving you hanging with that one. Will write more later...

FM